WOW!  Is September gone already?  I have not been doing much of anything since Mom died.  It seems like I have just been occupying space going around in a vicious circle.  I feel like I am getting things done but actually I have accomplished nothing.  Reading very little of the blogs I like, no writing, no posts on my blog of my own for about a month now.  I have let things outside of me get the best of me.

I have been working at my J-O-B and how fitting that the project that I am working on is called Zombies.  That is the best word to describe me for the past 6 weeks.  But I think it goes further back than that.

Since 2007, I have gone from being almost laid off—oh man was that stressful—to a relationship that did not work to depression to anxiety to depression again to mid-life crisis and then just…emptiness.

Back on August 15th, three days after Mom passed, I wrote about Life and what is actually important.  Since then I guess I have been trying to find myself.  It was an internal struggle, but a struggle I had to experience.  Then I came across this quote from George Bernard Shaw, “Life isn’t about finding yourself.  It’s about creating yourself.”

clip_image001Well, it is time for me to get out of my funk.  It is time to set my life straight, put my priorities in order and move forward instead of staying stuck in the mud.  I may not know where I am going but that does not matter.  I know where I have been and I know where I want to go.  For now, I will just live in the moment and start creating.

I have started reading a book called The Buddha, Geoff and Me by Edward Canfor-Dumas.  A fellow blogger referred this reading and I am finally going to sit down and read it.  It is a very interesting book so far.  I will let you know how it turns out in a later post.

Here is to creating!

Peace!!!

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